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Two years in Holland, part I

It's now been almost two years (on 17/9 to be exact) since I moved away from my family and the safety of our home and moved down here to the Netherlands, with Maastricht as the first stop.

I read the post I made after my first year in +31 and it sounded a bit angry actually, upset at how some people down in Limburg are. I guess that was just a feeling I had temporarily because I left Maastricht in May 2007 with almost only good memories and knowing I had grown so much as a human being.

That's what these two years have been more than anything else. A personal journey more than a physical one, even though the physical journey is illustrated in the picture to the left³³ . It's the most valuable time so far in my life and moving to NL is still the best decision I've ever made.

When I left Sweden I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, where I wanted to do what I didn't know and how i wanted to do what i didn't know what I wanted to do. I was about as confused about my future as you probably are after reading that sentence...

I was also in most cases very insecure with myself, what I was capable of and I guess a bit afraid at facing new things. I still am in some aspects, but I guess that thing is just minor considering I wasn't afraid at all at moving to Holland in the first place.

Even though I've grown a lot some people might still call me a bit asocial, but I have to disagree with that as I consider myself very friendly and open whenever I'm with friends or speaking to people. I've never had problems talking to strangers, the problem for me is to turn people from strangers to friends. It seems as if I can only be friends with people if I'm forced into meeting them repeatedly, with some exceptions of course.

Part of that is probably because I don't mind being by myself. I wouldn't call it alone and I don't really feel bad about it, I quite enjoy it most of the time. Maybe if I didn't care about being by myself it I'd have loads of friends. But I guess I'm more afraid of turning into one of those people who are more like stalkers than anything else.

If Maastricht was perfect for me on a very personal level I hope Den Haag can do more on a more visible plane, in lack of better words to express it. I also got high hopes on what my current job can mean for my future, at least my boss seem to think I have a bright future within my current company, which makes it all very inspiring. Especially when you know you've got the chance to, by Swedish standards, quite easily get a job in Stockholm in the future within the same company.3

1. it's done in M$ Word 2007 by the way333

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